Friday, February 11, 2022

A Poem About Popeye

I have things I have to do, I have updates to give you, a random person on the internet (or more likely it's just me in the future reading this). 

That said, here's a poem I wrote a few months ago:

Popeye Determines to Overcome his Midlife Crisis After Reading a Book About Buddhism  

As the third panel comes, I wait for the joke,

But it’s just Bluto waiting to fuck me up.

I run towards the spinach to save the day

but I never seem to remember just why I’m running or why. 

“I am what I am, and that's all that I am”

But the truth is, I don’t know what I am.

I think I am done with this.

There aren’t enough panels for “what I am”.  

There are so many 

terrible/wonderful/beautiful/mysterious 

panels left to find out. 

The self is an illusion, 

I am done lying.  


Friday, February 4, 2022

It's That Time Again Fragments

I was meaning to post fragments last month but I just wasn't motivated. I think it was a holiday hangover. 

Here are the latest and greatest fragments from my life:

Did We Get COVID? Read and Find Out 

Sometime in December I saw this gif on Twitter and thought, "yeah, that's it!"

We prepped for the holiday season as I knew there would be more possibilities for getting exposed to COVID.  I got boosted the week of Thanksgiving while my wife was boosted a few weeks later. Of course, we wore masks at work and out in public and we never eat inside restaurants but in early December we went out to lunch with another couple at an empty restaurant. I felt a little naked. A week later I took the kids to Spider-Man: No Way Home (it was fine) of course we still wore masks. 

Part of this renewed risk activity was because we were boosted, and Omicron hadn't hit yet, part of it was just being exhausted with COVID, like everyone else. 

It felt as if we were tempting fate but we decided to hold our annual holiday party for the first time since 2019. We felt pretty safe as the Omicron surge hadn't hit our area yet (at least not in a big way).  Almost all the adults and children were vaccinated and/or boosted, and one family had just had COVID ten days ago. So, all things considered, we felt pretty good about having the party. We had about 10-12 adults and 15 kids attend the party.  It was a lovely time and it almost felt normal if not for a sinking feeling I would get when I would look out across the house and wonder if we were hosting a mini-super spreader event. 

As it turned out, everyone was fine. 

On New Year's Eve, we decided to once again take a big risk and we attended a wedding. It was a little too hard to pass up as some good friends were going and it was a young couple that we really like. Besides, there was gonna be an open bar and a lot of our theater friends would be there.  

Most people were masked during the ceremony but once things really got going at the reception, there were only a few masks. I would haphazardly wear mine at the reception...but....again, remember there was an open bar so I possibly wasn't using the best judgment all of the time. That said, once again, we made it out okay. Last I heard the pastor did get COVID but the event was not a super-spreader event at all. A good and memorable time was had by all. I have to say the fact that they brought out tacos right before midnight was just so awesome and so San Antonio. 

Maybe we shouldn't have been so risky, but especially after the wedding, we steered clear of our parents for a week or so, just in case. 

But like Mario above, we somehow made it to the flagpole safely. We've had a bunch of close calls, taken various members to get tested but so far, so good....(not sure it can last forever)....

Friend Fragment Update

I was reflecting on this old post the other day

I don't recommend reading it, so to sum it up, it's a pathetic post about how lonely I was as I neared turning 40. It seemed like I hardly had any more "active" friends and of course, making friends as an adult is always hard. Well, I suppose I should update the blog and tell you since that time I have made some new friends. 

Instead of just having one good friend at work I am happy to report I  now have two additional really good friends. All three are so different and bring something different to the table.  My wife and I also found,  almost-the-impossible: we made friends with another couple....and we like both of them! We met through the church theater group we are a part of. Look, I am not saying I have some super busy social life but it's made all the difference for me and I feel much more happy friend-wise than I have been in a long time. So, if you're a lonely adult, there is hope...but ya gotta get a little lucky too. 

Fam Update

C (almost 16) has a boyfriend. They have been dating for about 3 months now, which feels even longer to me.  He seems like a good kid and yet.... well, there's too much to say in this blog about him. So, it's better left unsaid (it's complicated).  He goes to another school on the other side of town and neither can drive so that's been easier to control. Still, you can't help but worry for her heart. 

Also, C starting up dual credit/college applications and worrying about driving soon. She was looking up colleges and universities tonight.  It's a weird place to be. Sure, it felt a lot easier building pillow forts and having sock battles, telling bedtime stories and going for walks together on beautiful days but being a dad of a teen has its pleasures too. She's a smartie and I am proud of how passionate she can be about doing the right thing. We have loved being a good "second home" for her friends. The other day her best friend said we were the best parents....hey, not too shabby, that made us feel good.  

E is doing well in the 7th grade. She's a ballet dancer and I feel like half our week is driving her to her lessons or prepping for her dance performance for the school. She just got braces and refused to even show me for the first day! She's such a good kid...lately, we've been watching LOST together. It's my first re-watch of the show since it aired and that has been so much fun, watching it together.  I might even write a blog post about it at some point (yeah, don't hold your breath). 

H is once again obsessed with Pokemon, this is his third iteration of being Poke-crazed, which is fine by me (it's gotta be something and right now it's Pokemon and Minecraft). Now he watches YouTube videos of box and pack openings and we even tried to sell one on eBay (it was bought but the dude never paid). He is also playing flag football, the league is pretty competitive and he is having a blast. Good coaches and that's the key. Competitive but good hearts and good sportsmanship.  His team is very good and while he is new, he caught his first pass last week for 25 yards. He was filling in for the injured center the last week and did a great job. This week it was too cold and the game got postponed. :/

Comics Update

Did I ever tell you I have some comic goals in my life? Yeah, my life is that shallow and nerdy. I mainly collect old Marvel's, mainly late 70's to the very early 90s. But I also love old Disney (Dell/Gladstone) or the occasional DC also, you gotta spice it up sometimes. 

I will never collect a whole run of something, but I do have a few goals. 

Here's what I usually buy on the spot if the price is right:

All Black Costume pre-Venom Spider-Man (I probably have about half of these as is)...these are now almost impossible to find at the used book stores, so I might pick up a few in the coming years at the comic shop but we'll see how the prices are....

Any 80's Marvel...I think my heart skips a beat when I can find a Dr. Strange, Defenders, Fantastic Four, Avengers, and especially Spider-Ham, Rom and Micronauts. Basically, any weird stuff is a bonus and I will usually buy it if it's reasonably priced. About the only thing 80's I will shun is New Mutants (heck even the first year is kinda cool but after that, forget about it...I could just never get into them).  

I picked up Fantastic Four #140 last week and thought damn, the Thing 
was talking about orgies in a comic from 1971. Just kinda blew my mind.  

Special collections I am building towards: 

I am hoping to complete a run of 265-300 of Fantastic Four,  I have about  2/3 of it already. I just like to pick up what I can find in the wild. It's more fun that way.

Anything with Kang, time travel, alternate universes, etc. 

I am also trying to collect Excalibur 1-75. I have 1-26 and much of the later run but I probably need another 20 or so to go! A really underrated comic, especially when Alan Davis was at the helm. Funny, smart, and usually fun. 

The whole point is I try to find these organically and on the cheap it makes life exciting, yeah, I said it. 

------

I have some blog ideas but they are on the back burner. I also started editing a paper for possible publication but every time I think of it, I just feel ill. I have a lot going on at work that is non-teaching related and it's very exciting. I may find myself back in Ireland in the years to come but the soonest would be 2024. We'll see....

Well, that about does it, folks. Until next time,  stay safe, stay warm and when you hear that old song you haven't heard in a long time in the car, let go and sing like you've never sung before, I won't tell a soul. 

Thursday, December 30, 2021

Quote of the Day: Ancient Fake Confucius Quote Edition

I've been reading from Zhuangzi (translation by Ziporyn) and I came across an ancient fake Confucius quote (I guess everyone's been doing it for centuries). Zhuangzi used Confucius as a character in his writings, so while this quote is almost certainly not Confucian, it is attributed to him all the same: 

"People cannot see their reflections in running water, but only in still water" (Ziporyn 33)

For this coming new year, I hope I can slow down more often and reflect more clearly on who I am and who others are. 

Also, exercise more, eat better, yada yada yada, etc., etc., etc.  

I can't promise I will blog more this coming year (hate to disappoint ya, stranger but it's true). That said I hope whoever you are and whenever you are reading this you are happy, warm and have hope and dreams to hold onto, just in case you are neither happy nor warm.  


Tuesday, December 21, 2021

Confucius Didn't Say That!: Who Cut the Meat? Edition

I've been writing blog posts about fake Confucius quotes for years now. 

I feel like I have a pretty good lay of the land (the land of "Fake Confucius Quotes").  I got comfortable, maybe even lazy, seeing terrible quote after terrible quote. Knocking down fake quote after fake quote is still fun but I have to admit maybe it became a little routine. 

However, with today's post, there's something I have never written about before. A fake Confucius quote that is accidentally Confucian?  Stick around and find out below Confucian Philosophy fans....


“The way you cut your meat reflects the way you live.” Confucius 


At first glance, I thought this seemed pretty obvious that this is something that Confucius didn't say because it's stupid and pithy.  

I can kinda see a point here. I could see how someone might think that a person's table manners might reveal one's character but frankly, that's old school classism at its worst. It's something someone's rich grandma might say (or worse, actually believe). It's not just that it's snobby but it's stupid.

Except for George Constanza. I am pretty sure the way he ate revealed his character. 

The way a person eats tells me nothing of their actual character or "the way (they) live". Someone's table manners might tell me what kind of upbringing they had or their native culture but little to nothing is revealed about their actual character or intelligence level. 

(long pause)

Okay, that's the rant I wish I could keep going on about maybe something about how Confucius really only cares about the way people act towards one another ....but the truth is a little more complicated than that. While this quote definitely isn't in the Analects or spoken by Confucius...there is, a Confucian element at play in this quote. 

I am kinda embarrassed about the whole thing myself, but anyone can find the light switch on with the lights on (that's an inside joke), so let's dissect the background on the quote. 

First, we have to unpack a few ancient Chinese concepts before we move forward.

In the Analects, Confucius often uses the word wen. According to many scholars, there isn't an exact English equivalent for wen but the general consensus seems to be wen is defined as "cultural refinement", "culture" will do in a jiffy though.  

According to Confucius, being refined is itself, an art form and a desired trait for those wanting to improve their lives, from 5:15: 

"Zi Gong asked: “How did Kong Wen Zi get the title ‘wen’”? (wen = learned, literary, refined) Confucius said, “He was diligent and loved to study. He was also unashamed to ask questions to his inferiors. Therefore he got the name wen.” - (all quotes from AC Muller)

There's also the concept of li, which is centered on ritual. Here is how Muller describes the concept of li

"The term li, however, has, in the Analects, a much broader meaning than ritual, since it can also refer to the many smaller “ritualized” behavior patterns involved in day-to-day human interactions. This would include proper speech and body language according to status, age, sex— thus, “manners.” In this sense, li means any action proper, or appropriate to the situation."  - AC Muller 

I lean on Muller to do the heavy lifting in this blog series as his translation is clear, accurate and easy to link to also his commentary is also spot-on.  Ultimately, it's my blog and I don't want to go around digging for hours on my bookshelf or online to get you basically the same information. 

Muller and others often translate li as propriety. Knowing when to do something properly is an honored Confucian value and skill. This would include, even eating.

Slingerland states, "The tradition (classic Chinese culture) is the system of ritual practice, music, and langue use that in Confucius' opinion plays a primary role in shaping human character" (Slingerland xxiii). 

So, for Confucius, the way a person ate probably would reveal something about their character. At best, it would show them to be uncultured or ignorant, at worst, stupid, impatient, and/or rude. 

Here are some examples of the importance of wen (culture) and li (propriety and ritual).

From 1:12 (of course, I bold the important aspects for clarity below):

"You Zi said: “In the actual practice of propriety, flexibility is important. This is what the ancient kings did so well— both the greater and the lesser used flexibility. Yet there are occasions when this does not apply: If you understand the flexibility and use it, but don't structure yourself with propriety, things won't go well.”

When Confucius is asked about filial piety in 2:5 he states, "When your parents are alive, serve them with propriety; when they die, bury them with propriety, and then worship them with propriety.”

Maybe most damning of them all, comes in 3:5, "The Master said: “If a man has no ren what can his propriety be like? If a man has no ren what can his music be like?”

Ren is often translated as humaneness, an ideal that a junzi or "superior person" should live up to. With this quote from 3:5, Confucius is obviously conflating one's li with one's ethics and vice versa. For Confucian philosophers, you just couldn't have one without the others. In other words, the little stuff matters. One's propriety and "culture" reflect one's character. 

Later in 7:25, comes this zinger, "The Master taught four things: Culture, correct action, loyalty and trust."

As for actual verses from the Analects on eating, we have yet another verse that affirms the Confucian quality of our fake quote. 

In a large dialogue on Confucius' eating habits in 10:6, the Analects states, "(Confucius) did not chat while eating, and did not talk after retiring. No matter what kind of simple fare it might be, such as coarse rice or broth, he would always make an offering, doing so with due solemnity."

This is the first fake quote that while still fake, is ultimately Confucian in tone and in its values. I don't agree with the Confucian value of emphasizing rituals, manners, and culture. Life's too short to care about following table manner do's and don'ts. Of course, I am not advocating for chewing with your mouth open but my point still stands. 

Maybe my biggest disagreement with Confucius might be his inability to see the dao or way of doing things as cultural and arbitrary as opposed to his idea that it is established by Tian or "Heaven". We just have to recognize that ultimately, Confucius was a man of his time, and he extolled the values of the past.  

I don't think we should make inferences on their moral character based upon the way someone speaks or eats. As for how to really judge someone, I say we should go closer to something like we find in 1:4: 

"Ceng Zi said: “Each day I examine myself in three ways: in doing things for others, have I been disloyal? In my interactions with friends, have I been untrustworthy? Have not practiced what I have preached?”


Sunday, December 19, 2021

3 More Underrated Albums of the 90's

I've done a few other posts of my favorite "underrated" albums of the '90s, so it's become a "thing" on this little blog of mine. So, here are three more underrated albums of the 90's.....

World Party - Goodbye Jumbo (1990) 

This album doesn't feel like a 90's album but it doesn't feel like an 80's album either. It's a classic Beatles-esque album (from a British band no less). There are some echoes of Sloan here and that's a good thing.  It's earnest, thoughtful but ultimately, too inconsistent to be considered a stone-cold 90's classic, at least for me personally. Its highs are very high though and it's enough for me to recommend it to you, a random stranger on the internet.  

The album wrestles with worrying about the fate of the world and trying to find what hope is left (for the environment, for relationships, etc.).  As I stated before it's a little uneven but still worth a listen, after all, your mileage may vary.  There's something endearing and tragic when listening to the song, "Put the Message in the Box" in 2021 and knowing how the global community has failed our future. A good depressing chaser might be maybe the best song on the whole album, the Beach Boys-inspired, "God On My Side".  

Stand Out Tracks for the Lazy: "Way Down Now", "Put the Message in the Box", "When the Rainbow Comes", "God On My Side". 


that dog - Retreat from the Sun (1997)

This is the first track, but you can find the whole album on YT. 

I suppose this is one of those albums you either love or hate. From my perspective, I have no idea how this didn't become a huge hit. If you like power pop, you're going to probably like it. that dog is such a unique band.  You have those classic 90's distorted guitars with healthy dollops of violin, all with beautiful voices blending to create memorable melodies (insert chef's kiss).  

Retreat from the Sun is a huge pop album full of sing-along anthems that will have you singing along or drumming on your steering wheel. You might even stop caring that people may see you belting these songs out in your car, at the top of your lungs.   I recommend it for the summer, happy times, good moods, and long drives. There are some missteps on the back half of the album, but hey, just skip to the next track if you don't like it. Fun album, great songs, I come back to every few years and enjoy it all the same. 

Stand Out Tracks for the Lazy: "I'm Gonna See You", "Never Say Never", "Being With You", "Minneapolis", "Long Island"


Built to Spill - There's Nothing Wrong with Love (1994)


If you aren't familiar with Built to Spill, you should be.... and this is a great album to introduce new people into their style and genius. It's easy to try to describe bands by comparing their sound to other bands but I can't really do that with Built to Spill. Their sound, song structure and lyrics are unique. I hope I am building this album up for you, because I am not afraid to do that. You need to listen to this album.

It's energetic, unpredictable, creative and of course, catchy. I recommend listening when you are working on completing boring or thoughtless tasks as it will liven up whatever it is you are doing. I love this album but the first six tracks are probably my favorite section of the album. Please don't stop there though. Embrace the weirdness, embrace this album. 

Stand Out Tracks for the Lazy: Tracks 1-6, in particular, "In the Morning", "Reasons" and "Cleo". 

Friday, December 17, 2021

Art Post: Untitled (Contagion Collage/Acrylic)

I haven't posted an art post in a long time because I haven't done much painting in the last few years. I have all the usual excuses though (email me for the entire list). I have doodled a bit here and there with some paint markers but nothing too formal (I did draw a cool griffin though).  I've also found my artistic efforts centered on writing a YA fantasy novel (yeah, I'm stuck again) and of course from 2016-2019 in acting in community theater. 

This particular piece has a backstory and a direct inspiration. 

I made this painting back in 2019 after a visit to the Art Institute of Chicago. I had recently visited art museums in New Orleans, Philadelphia and DC, so art and art creation had been in my mind at the time.  I love post-modern art and in particular, I am drawn towards bright, expressive, child-like art (begin your psychoanalysis now). 

Anyway,  I was looking at Jackson Pollock's Number 17A.

I love this but David Giffin bought it for $200 million in 1990. Think of the good he could have done with that cash. Capitalism ruins everything.

The exhibit shared a small quote from Pollock that was next to this piece and it had a profound impact on me and how I understand the creation of art:

"When I am in my painting, I'm not aware of what I am doing...I have no fears about making changes, destroying the image, etc., because the painting has a life of its own. I try to let it come through". 

This mindset of trying to exclude that analytical part of your brain from art creation, to tap the reserves of your subconscious (or even chance), appeals to me. The ego part of my brain wants to control how it looks or worries about "ruining" it. This mentality of control often stands in the way of breakthroughs or inspired art. I want to adopt this mindset to my writing, acting, etc.  

I want to let go of my ego and stop worrying about "wasting" the paint or the canvas and just see what happens. 

It was this attitude that I attempted this piece, at least I tried to.  Although I did select what would be in the center of the collage, much of the painting, placement and style came about quite randomly. 

I had a copy of this old children's book from my grandmother's house. It was written by Thorton Burgess and illustrated by Harrison Cady sometime in the 1930's.  I had become fascinated by this book as a child when I discovered it at her "vacation cabin".  Decades later, I found it in her house. I was instantly taken back to my memories of this old worn-out book.   I swiped it as I knew if I didn't it would eventually wind up in the trash or sold in the estate sale. Not sure if that makes me a bad person but I am pretty sure she barely knew it existed. 

In many ways, my fascination with this book was the clue that I would always love old stuff. 

When I began to create this piece I knew I wanted one of these illustrations to be used as the center of the piece. The additional cut-outs including old stamps and advertisements from 1970's comic books were randomly dropped on the canvas and I began to drop paint on the canvas at random. I trusted the moment and stopped worrying. 

A big green glop of paint landed right on the child's face in the illustration. I quickly used a metal tool to make the most of the glop. The random glop became vine-like and as the child was "sick" in the picture, it felt like a spreading virus had come, it became a symbol of disease and contagion. I then worked the glops into plant-like "tumors", each reaching out to grow and connect. I dunno what it means but it gives me a bit of discomfort seeing all the growth surrounding and infecting everything in its path.  

As usual, enjoy if you like. 


Untitled (2019) - Collage and Acryllic 


Untitled (2019) - Close up 

Untitled (2019) - Close up


Saturday, November 13, 2021

Pic Dump: Dumping at the End of the Year

It's the end of the year and I am busy posting in December because I had all these half-finished blogs and ideas. Here's what I have been sharing my old buddy via text and DM, or what he's shared with me. Happy Holidays, ya creeps. 
 

Self-Own Level 9.8


It's cute, ain't it?






Seems totally normal. Of course, this is the worst country, so this has become a thing now. 





This was our pumpkin. I made it in 3 minutes. It's not great but it exemplifies 2020-2021. 





Agree 1,000,000%



It's been long enough, right? Right? Right?!?!





If only I knew this in high school.